In the waiting room at the breast imaging centre, there is a sea of women in blue gowns. Some are seated. Some are standing, leaned against the wall, looking at their phones or just looking around. They are young and they are old. Tall, short, fat and thin – with hair and without. On this day there are no men, but I’ve seen them here because men get breast cancer, too. I close my eyes and my sisters in blue fade like waves on a horizon. I focus on the metallic chatter from the TV and the clamoring ring of a phone no one has answered. I want to hear music; I want to hear the street sounds. I don’t want to be here. None of us do. Yet all our hope lies here, in the waiting room.
One of the cruel aspects of this disease is that it hits us in such an intimate part of our bodies. Practically speaking, the breast is more expendable than some other parts of us. We can remove a breast and go on living. But they’re also an inextricable part of who we are. They’re a site of pleasure. They also feed our babies. They represent, in many ways, the cycle of life.
So, when someone takes a waterproof pen and draws a map across them or leads us into a dark biopsy room to remove a part of them, a part of us can go missing, too. When a patient is told she can potentially save her life by having a breast removed, it raises a complex array of feelings. Breasts, while not necessary for our lives, are far from vestigial. And it can be very painful when we have to say goodbye – in part or in full – to them.
Maybe that’s why in the past 50 years there’s been such an emphasis on reconstructive surgery to rebuild (or build anew) the breast that’s taken. The right to breast reconstruction has long been understood as an issue of freedom, bodily autonomy and choice. In Canada, breast reconstruction is funded as a part of our national health system because although it’s an aesthetic procedure, it has a positive impact on some patients’ mental health.
There is another option – aesthetic flat closure (going flat). Today, about one out of seven women in Ontario having breast-conserving surgery or mastectomy gets a flat closure. Google “going flat” and you’ll find Instagram selfies of lush, tattooed flat closures and coverage of fashion shows featuring women who chose to go flat, with an emphasis on body positivity. Through “Flat and Fabulous” blogs and social media groups, women share photos of the beautiful, flat-style dresses they’ve found for their weddings – and of date nights, smiling with their partners, no prostheses required. Judging from the community that’s been growing over time, going flat has been a positive choice for many women.
But most Canadian healthcare websites make only passing mention of the choice to get a flat closure – or no mention at all.
I’ve been wondering why.
When Abigail Bakan, a political science professor at the University of Toronto, had a bilateral mastectomy in 2016, she decided from the start she didn’t want reconstruction. “I said no. And they had it on my record,” she told me. But members of her cancer care team asked her, repeatedly, if she was sure. “That’s when I started thinking, ‘Why are they are continually asking the question and there’s only one right answer?’ The ‘right’ answer is you’re supposed to say yes.”
A social worker on Bakan’s cancer team recommended that she attend the Breast Reconstruction Awareness Day event in Toronto, known as BRA Day. BRA Days are held at various venues across North America, including community centres, convention centres and hospitals. It features seminars for patients about different reconstruction techniques as well as a Show and Tell Lounge where breast-reconstruction patients tell their stories (and show results) to women who’ve been referred to the event by their physicians.
The logo for BRA Day features a pink cancer ribbon with a symmetrical pair of loops resembling breasts and the tagline “Closing the loop on breast cancer.” The logo reflects the idea that constructing a new breast can be a liberating alternative to wearing a prosthesis or facing potential social stigma around appearing without a prosthesis. As Toni Zhong, a Toronto-based plastic surgeon and conference organizer, put it: “We now know that you don’t have to live with a mastectomy defect for the rest of your life and there are options available that can restore your breast to make you feel and look good or certainly better.”
But what if a patient doesn’t see her mastectomy or lumpectomy as “awkward” or a “defect?”
The women in the Flat and Fabulous movement are pushing back against the idea that they’re not whole without their breasts, blending online organizing around breast cancer care with image galleries that bring greater visibility to women who have chosen flat closure. One organization, Not Putting on a Shirt, uses social media to provide vetted information on topics such as body image, communicating with providers, emotional health and local community supports.
In this sense, the Flat and Fabulous movement has done more than introduce a new aesthetic option. It’s pushed for better shared decision-making and choice (two concepts that are key in the reproductive rights movement) in breast cancer care. This shift is needed. Across Flat and Fabulous platforms, women are telling their stories of recovery from botched surgeries or of “explanting” implants for various reasons, including serious health issues.
Yet many say that they were not made aware of risks, statements that are borne out in research. A cross-sectional survey in the U.S. in 2017 found that just 43.3 percent of breast cancer patients had made a “high-quality decision (about reconstruction), defined as having knowledge of at least half of the important facts and undergoing treatment concordant with one’s personal preferences.” Many hospital websites and most of the major American clinical breast-reconstruction decision aids do not include the option of flat closure (a notable exception being the Breast Advocate app, developed by plastic surgeon Minas Chrysopoulo).
This kind of information gap can have a negative effect on women’s quality of life. A 2017 study confirmed earlier research that patients are more likely to express decision regret when they have not been engaged in shared decision-making around post-mastectomy decisions, with this being true both for women who wanted reconstruction and those who wanted a flat closure. “Patients often felt pressure from their clinicians to choose one option or another,” according to the study, with some feeling that bias was at play and others feeling rushed to decide on the spot.
It may seem odd that some women must press their surgeons to get a flat closure, but it happens. A study of 931 women in 2021 by UCLA’s Jonsson Comprehensive Cancer Center found that 18 percent of recent mastectomy patients had been told there were no options for them to choose to go flat. In five percent of cases, women were given surgical results that they didn’t ask for, with the surgeons leaving additional tissue instead of a flat closure; what the researchers called “intentional flat denial.”
According to Deanna Attai, a California-based breast surgeon who co-authored the study: “Some patients were told that excess skin was intentionally left – despite a preoperative agreement to perform a flat chest wall closure – for use in future reconstruction, in case the patient changed her mind.” Attai notes, “We were surprised that some women had to struggle to receive the procedure that they desired.”
There is also the problem of a data gap, with little information collected on how satisfied women are when they choose to go flat. Recent data is interesting, however. A 2019 systematic review of 28 studies found that women who went without reconstruction fared no worse and sometimes better than those with reconstructed breasts, with no notable differences in terms of “quality of life, body image and sexuality.” Some of this was confirmed by results of the 2021 UCLA study that Attai co-authored, which showed that 75 to 90 per cent of women who underwent mastectomy without reconstruction were satisfied.
But in a data-driven field, there needs to be more research to form a better understanding about navigating the decision-making process.
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The history of breast cancer surgery is a grim chronicle of trial, error and slow progress. Lumpectomies have been performed since at least the 14th century. Rudimentary mastectomies are documented in the 19th century, including the mastectomy of Abigail “Nabby” Adams, the daughter of U.S. President John Adams, who underwent an early mastectomy while tied to a chair in her parents’ home with no anesthetic or antiseptic.
In the late 19th century, American surgeon William Halsted developed the radical mastectomy, removing the whole tumour in one piece along with the pectoral muscles, lymphatic vessels and axillary lymph nodes. While the procedure saved lives, it also led to pain and disability.
In the early 1930s, the modified radical mastectomy was developed, sparing some women pain by retaining muscle in the chest. Then, with advances in radiation and chemotherapy, research showed that some classes of patients who were treated with a lumpectomy (removal of tumour with an extra margin of tissue) and radiation had similar survival rates to women treated with only a mastectomy. As a result, in the late 1980s, the concept of breast-conserving surgery became more popular.
Before reconstruction became commonplace, women who had mastectomies were typically offered a range of prostheses – balls of cotton fabric and wool placed in the bra or bras with built in shelves and prosthesis.
Although surgeons in the first half of the 20th century experimented with reconstructions that used the woman’s own tissue (autologous reconstructions), it wasn’t until 1963 with the development of silicone breast implants that reconstruction surged in popularity. But these implants also created health risks and led to numerous recalls, explants and class action lawsuits.
They still carry risks and complications. Most recently, textured breast implants, which were used in thousands of procedures, were pulled off the market by Health Canada in 2019 because of a rare risk of lymphoma. Amazingly, some women have struggled to get provincial health coverage to have them removed. Women in the U.S. are similarly battling with insurers for coverage to have various types of breast implants removed.
In 1979, the first modern autologous breast reconstruction was performed, opening a door to alternatives for women choosing reconstruction. These procedures continue to carry risks, however, including limited mobility in sport as well as mastectomy skin flap necrosis (tissue death) that can cause scarring, deformity and lead to more interventions. A 2018 study of 2,300 Canadian and American women who had breast reconstruction between 2012 and 2015 found that women with autologous reconstruction experienced higher rates of complications than women with implants.
The choice to go flat has just recently begun to be normalized within the mainstream of cancer care. The term “aesthetic flat closure” was only adopted by the National Cancer Institute (U.S.) in 2020. And some of the loudest voices for a new approach have come from women who experienced flat denial. In Quebec, Marie-Claude Belzile wrote in 2017 that her experience inspired her to make change to health care in her community: “I had to fight with my breast surgeon to be flat. Even after I told him multiple times I wanted to go flat, he wrote on my surgery form ‘reconstruction, expanders.’ He finally respected my choice and did a good job, but the fight I had to go through should have never happened.” Belzile, who passed away in 2020 from metastatic disease, started a Facebook page called Tout aussi femme after being diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer. She also founded a French-speaking flat support group called Les Platines.
“Many women (opt out) for comfort, others are athletes and many women…want it to stay simple. Reconstruction is not a simple process,” says Attai, adding that in the past few years more of her patients, especially those with smaller breasts, are opting out of reconstruction.
Women who use their back muscles for work or athletics may be wary of latissimus dorsi flap surgery (which I was offered) because there is a risk it can compromise shoulder function. This and other procedures carry risks including infection and necrosis. Complications may lead to further interventions. In the U.S., one in three women develop a postoperative complication from breast-reconstruction surgery within two years and one in five require additional surgery. In five per cent of cases, reconstruction fails.
While a patient can give informed consent when knowing the risks, too often breast cancer patients have not been made aware of those risks. The UCLA study found that just 14 percent of patients were aware of potential complications of reconstruction – but 57 percent reported that they had been informed of the potential benefits to reconstruction procedures. The team concluded that: “Implementation of uniform surgical management and improved respect for patient consent in this population would result in significantly improved patient experiences.”
I was interested to see the word consent in the UCLA paper. While breasts are a part of gender, sexuality and reproduction, terms like choice, consent, shared decision-making and autonomy – common in the lexicon of gynecology – seem less common in breast cancer care.
I asked Todd Tuttle, a professor of surgery at the University of Minnesota, whether professional organizations in the field of breast cancer would be offering more guidance on fostering informed decision-making. “They’re going to have to,” he said, pointing out, “we’ve moved from paternalism, where the treatment plan was basically dictated by the surgeon often to the woman’s husband,” toward an atmosphere of greater choice and autonomy for patients. Tuttle notes that whether patients decide to have reconstruction or go flat, one key quality of life indicator is whether they felt they were able to have a real choice in the decision.
“If you give them enough time and enough information, they’re more likely to be happy five years afterward and they’ll feel like they made the right decision. Those people who are not satisfied often felt rushed or pushed,” he says. “I think time is probably one of the most important aspects of shared decision-making for breast cancer.”
In Canada, our underfunded systems lead to a different kind of rush. In seeking to care for everyone but with limited resources, our clinics lack capacity. Time often seems like a luxury – but with reconstructive surgery, waiting can actually help mitigate risk. A 2018 study found that patients who delayed reconstruction were significantly less likely to develop complications than those who chose to do their reconstruction immediately.
“I think we don’t talk as much with patients as we used to,” says Tuttle. “There’s all this documentation on electronic medical records and doctors are trying to get all that done instead of just talking to patients. The only way you can have those (important) conversations is by taking your time and listening.”
As we spoke, I thought back to the day of my diagnosis. I had brought a list of questions to the appointment (which I attended alone, due to COVID restrictions). My doctor pulled out a pen and wrote a series of quick notes about the specifics of my diagnosis … on the room’s examining table paper. After he rushed off to see other patients and I was alone in the room, I carefully tore the examining table paper, folded it and put it in my purse to read later with my husband. When I got home, it was inscrutable – an experience we would have again when results were posted in the online Patient Portal.
It was all information, to be sure. But it didn’t replace a conversation.
I switched to a different hospital, with a doctor who scheduled an in-depth introductory Zoom meeting about my care and choices. I remember being grateful that she took the time. I also recall that this conversation took place at 8:30 p.m. My new provider was making time for her patients by working after hours. Most likely, it was the only way she could.
“The problem with breast cancer is you have to make these irreversible life decisions in a really short time,” says Tuttle, “and you’re making the decisions at probably the most stressful point in your life.”
Throughout breast cancer treatments, our relationship with our bodies changes. During chemo our hair falls out, our weight fluctuates, bizarre things happen to our fingernails and skin. We get sick and sometimes can’t stay awake. The radiation burns us; those put into chemical menopause are doused in hot flashes. Pain and discomfort are part of the whole deal. And while there are some small decisions we have control over during treatment, most of us simply take the treatment plan handed to us if we want the best chance to get well. The choice of whether to reconstruct or go flat is different. This decision isn’t about fighting cancer; it’s about healing from the fight.
After my lumpectomies for synchronous bilateral cancer, I was offered a reconstruction. Because they removed more tissue from the right than the left, the plastic surgeon’s plan was to recreate a symmetry between my right and left breasts. But this choice would have involved a lot more than ticking off a box and signing a consent form (which I was offered in a flurry of papers before even seeing the consulting plastic surgeon) – and after months of cancer interventions that had too often kept me away from family and work, the thought of more surgeries exhausted me. I was ready to start reconnecting with my body, which already had become a site of multiple, difficult interventions. For me, rebuilding my relationship with my body didn’t involve rebuilding my breasts.
I was also not convinced by BRA Day’s claim that I could “close the loop on breast cancer” with plastic surgery. As I write this, I have a 20-year prescription for preventative meds in the hopes of staving off metastasis. Breast cancer is a part of my life now. What if, instead of “closure” through a facsimile of my pre-cancer body, I strive to accept the myriad ways that fighting cancer has changed me? Could accepting my post-treatment body help make the reality of survivorship easier, too?
Some of my concerns were like those of Isabelle (who chose not to use her last name), an Ottawa patient whose choice to go flat was supported by her health team. “I made the choice to have prophylactic mastectomies because I have a high risk of developing breast cancer, and I watched my mother die from it,” she told me. “That part of the choice was easy. What I had not really considered was the reconstruction.” In debating a post-mastectomy plan, she said, “I didn’t want to do anything that would require a long recovery, multiple surgeries, time away from the sports and activities I love … Going flat meant that I would not take any additional risks with my health.”
Isabelle echoed a common theme among women who go flat: a sense of wanting to move on with life. “I don’t feel like I am losing my femininity, that I will look like less of a woman,” she said. “My breasts fed my two babies … Now I want to be around for those babies for as long as I can.”
With all the aspects of cancer we don’t have control over, the aesthetic decisions carry an extra weight; they’re personal, yet they also have cultural meaning. As Belzile wrote: “My vision is that the more we speak out about our realities and our fights, the more it’ll change the culture and society … I see a way for getting visible to each other and to others and get validated for who we are. I see a future where women are respected and taken as the only person competent on what’s best for her.”
Back in the waiting room, my mind travels to my visit a year ago, waiting to go down the hall for surgery. X-rays of my tumours would be taken in surgery that day and sent to me later via a secure hospital server. I opened the images late one night and was struck by their appearance, like variegated blossoms in white and black – excised and sampled for cells to see if they got it all. They tried to get it all. We tried, all summer, fall and winter. Did we? I wonder: Did we get it all?
I open my eyes and look around the room. Every face tells a story and everyone here is waiting for some kind of news. Here, our breasts are imaged, mapped and ultrasounded, pressed in the mammogram machine, deconstructed in biopsy. We sit patiently, hold our breath; we bleed, blink back tears. Then at the end of the appointment, we take the elevator down and step back into everyone else’s world to find our way. To reconstruct, resurrect or rediscover who we are.
PQ: What if a patient doesn’t see her mastectomy or lumpectomy as “awkward” or a “defect?”
PQ: “Most of us simply take the breast cancer treatment plan handed to us if we want the best chance to get well. The choice of whether to reconstruct or go flat is different. This decision isn’t about fighting cancer; it’s about healing from the fight.”
This story was originally published on healthydebate.ca
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